| Single Mom "Living" with Bipolar & BPD... -
Gonna need my pills again… I’ve been off meds for over a month & I’m feelin like I might have to go back on them. I wish I could say I no longer needed them… But I feel it, the sadness, its comin back. I guess I couldn’t fight it off for good.
I am a broken mess, I face the truth daily. But I keep trying, keep fighting. If I could just “give up” life might be easier, but I can’t… -
racing thoughts… Everything has been doin better, but today wasn’t really a good day. I can feel the sadness creeping back in…
I’ve been tryin so hard, but most the time it isn’t enough.
Being in pain all time sucks too. On top of my back, now my foot & leg are acting up again too… Oh goodness.
Feeling very overwhelmed right now… -
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I think this sculpture is beautiful
This made me inhale sharply. Wow, I think
**This is so real & beautiful… perfection…
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Will things ever change? Things have been going better lately, but today I feel sad & lonely… The cycles suck!
I deserve to be lonely. There are so many things about myself that I do not like. I don’t blame others for getting tired of being around me, but it still makes me sad.
I want to be someone people want to be around, someone they actually miss when I’m not there…
Not sure I will ever get there… -
DBT seems to be helping. I am in no way out of the woods, nor am I dumb enough to think I’m “cured”, but my DBT is helping me. I am still at the beginning, and still have to learn all the skills. BUT I have learned to slow down, and breathe. Though things may be difficult, it is not the end and I will pull through. I can do this… -
Waiting to go into court for childsupport… this could be a really bad day… :( -
Need this week to count… It’s a new week, I am gonna try to stay strong & get as much done in my house as possible… Hope I can pull it off. -
Tryin to relax & be in the moment… Always thinkin, always stressin… I am tryin to grasp this concept of “Mindfulness”, it does not come naturally.
So, I am layin on my bed, my daughter is watchin a kids movie on Netflix, and I am watchin the curtains move, as the wind comes in my window. Swish, swish… I hear the cars on the wet road outside. the sounds are relaxing me… -
Still don’t like being alone… I have a ton of things to fix about myself, stuff I really don’t like. I am doing it for me, not for anyone else, but it’s still hard.
I know I am not ready to be in a relationship, that I want to last, even thought I still want one…
But I still don’t like being alone… actually, it really sucks… -
DBT I went to my 1st DBT group today & I am so excited… It is exactly what I need!! Actually bummed that its only once a week… I wanna learn the skills ASAP so I can change my life for the better!
I might have a chance to make everything better… Yay! It’s never too late to be what you were meant to be.
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Today was better… Last night I decided to try harder today, for my kids…
I didnt get my room cleaned, like I really needed to, but for some reason, I dont feel like a failure… I set my expectations lower & didnt try to be perfect. I KNOW I cant be, but I still try… I really need to stop that!
Just made pizzas for the kids & now we are watchin Fame, my teenager daughter’s Easter gift.
I feel like a better mom today…
Today was a pretty good day… -
Today was a total failure… I tried hard & thought I was doin good, but everything fell apart bout 4pm. I know I can’t be perfect, but I have high expectations for myself… I hate when I screw up. Especially when it makes my kids sad… Mood swings suck!! -
Waitin… To meet a new Dr. the meds im on aren’t workin… They need to b up’d or changed… I HATE meds!!! -
Weekend Getaway I am stayin at a friends house this weekend and it is my home away from home. I LOVE how I feel when I’m here!! Being with people you love is so healing to my soul!
I dont have a ton of support in my life, so when I find someone who is supportive, I tend to cling to them… I hope I never become so intense that I drive her away too… But that seems to be the lot of people like me. So, I guess im gonna make the most of each day I have with her. <3 | | NAVIGATION ARCHIVE
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RSSABOUT ME I am 29.
Female
Never married.
Single mom of 3 kids.
(Pregnant at 15 with my oldest & first child.)
I have:
Bipolar Disorder
Recurring Major Depression
Borderline Personality Disorder
Anxiety Disorder
Insomnia
I am supposed to be on many meds, and did stay on them for a solid 6 months last year, but it is really hard for me to take them. My life is spiraling out of control because I do not have a handle on my Bipolar & BPD & the symptoms are kicking my ass!!
I am a recovering cutter, 1 year "clean" so far. Though I still think about, & struggle with thoughts of, cutting on a daily basis.
I have survived numerous suicide attempts as a teen/ young adult, and have been hospitalized, as well as stayed in residential type places, more than a dz times.
MORE than a single mom, I enjoy...
MUSIC. coffee. creativity. pepsi. animal prints. passion. talking. tattoos. sex. reading. being spoiled. karaoke. Lady Antebellum. MUSIC. singing. kissing. friends. most red things. organizing. writing. white russians. country music. french fries. movies. facebook. planning parties. txting. editting. truth. MUSIC. black & white. R&B Music. bargain shopping. photography. art. home decorating. blogging. feeling alive. MUSIC. Sugarland. swearing(sometimes). entertaining. and my new adventure... DJing ;)
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